网恋(鬼恋)
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在广州幽深的小巷子中信步走走,她还是很容易迷路。
尽管她对方位感一向很敏感,还是迷路在陌生而又熟悉的城市里。
广州,你可曾知,她曾是那样熟悉,她为此嘴角挂起了微笑。
她安静地站在那里,凄凄地微笑着说,广州,我又来了,我很好,真的,一切安好。
这是她平生第二次来到广州,一路上,血液里流淌的是那些熟悉且充满无数暗涌的情愫。
耳边是火车发动机的轰响声,是卡嚓卡嚓的车轮沉重的滚动在铁轨上的轰响声,是空气推动着距离向后不断倒去的风啸声,是从湘江再次起程南下长长的汽笛声…这些都沿着祖国版图的弯曲,沿着铁轨的伸延,沿着通往她人间的路线一步步逼近。
都说网上是无真情的,何况,那一世的红尘里,她尝试过很多的凄苦与悲哀。
但是仍然无法抑止的爱上了。
假如,人的一生总会真正的爱上一次,她想,佛,请赐我这唯一的最后一次。
所以,她来了,悲伤的来到了他的这座城市。
这座城市事实上她一点不陌生,无论是二沙岛,还是海珠桥,无论是东山,还是越秀,无论是天河,还是黄埔,几乎城市的的每一寸土地,她都曾经走过,她的整个的青春,整个美好的,如花一般灿烂过的岁月,全部毫无保留的留在了这里,所以,一路上,由湘江,到南粤,她轻车路熟。
但她仍然迷了路,在三年之后这个五月的繁花盛开的花城春天。
城市变化太多,高楼日新月异,城市依然灯红酒绿,但却昨是今非。
放眼望去,她再一次成了城市里匆匆擦肩而逝的路人,她苦苦的寻,陌生而又艰辛。
手头上的电话号码一点一点濡湿,字迹渐渐模糊。
但她清晰的记得,这一次彼此铭心刻骨的约定。
只道是湘女多情,他一直固执的说,你信吗,在很多很多年前的那一轮前世,我们一定有过约定,他们第一次相识,他说,垣外白榆随宿列,树头青鸟候风翻。
他说你是青鸟,我是候风,是你等我,还是我等你呢?
她不禁莞尔,那是在他们网上相识整整三年以后。
他的第N次请求,见一面吧,她终于悲伤的应允,十指苍白的敲击下,他们终于约定了时间,他们决定在彼此都熟悉的花城见面,她来花城见他。
他什么都应允,三年来,他其实就是这么毫无原则的宠着她。
隔着渺渺的时空。
她是认识他的,他曾经在认识她的第二天,就给她发了一大堆的照片,以后的两年多的时光里,他几乎隔上一段时间都会给她发照片,有在的,孤灯之下冷漠看书的孤影,也有一个人野地里翻山越岭工作中抓拍的照片……
他们是在网上相互认识的。
她叫青鸟,他叫候风,她以为那是他的网名,后来才知道,原来,那是他的真的名字。
他喜欢在博客里写些工作中新鲜发掘的神秘玄幻古怪的轶事,她成了他博客小屋的常客。
他渐渐的就留意住了她。
一个孤单的叫青鸟的女子。
他的年纪,约摸比她大很多,算不上英俊,面容很消瘦,冷峻的额头淡淡的透着一股睿智的光辉。
这跟他的经历和工作有关。
他说过他是职业考古学家,长年飘泊在外,到哪里都是过客。
的时候,她终于走累了。
她把自己疲惫的融入在陌生的人群,闲散的珠江之畔,一个年轻的十八九岁的男孩,手里抱着一把吉它,旁若无人的坐在晚风中唱着一首伍佰的情歌,除了她,路上来来去去的行人,没有一个人看得见他,原来他和自己一样,都是城市游走的孤魂,要有缘的人,才能见到并且听到他们的伤悲。
歌声嘶哑而又凄婉,一点一点的在她心里潮湿,渐渐泛滥。
心仿若已经远离了城市的喧嚣与繁杂,她忍不住抬起头来看看头顶被高楼剌破的穹空,星月惨淡散去,暮色深沉起来了。
这个时候,她的手机响了起来,她忽然紧张的快要窒息,她知道是他,她忽然不知道该不该去见面。
都说死去的亡魂必定要回到故土,曾经的生命其实是一段苦旅,她走过很长一段坎坷,她曾经在很美好的岁月踏梦而来,来到广州,但最后生命终究一无所有,并且千疮百孔,当她重新回到家乡,那里早已经没有了可供她疗伤和休憩的老屋。
故园冉冉物华,终究是弃我去者,昨日之日不可留。
他说她是青鸟,在古书上,青鸟代表吉祥和幸福,但其实他不知道,她和他一样,曾经他们一样徒步红尘,到哪里都是匆匆过客。
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广州依然还是人间乐土,看不清行人的面孔,仿佛一个个都涂着厚厚的粉脂,城市里悠悠荡荡,看惯了面具一样的喜怒哀乐。
一个微凉的影子轻轻的来到了她的跟前,那模糊消瘦的脸,印着熟悉的,忧郁的笑容。
他其实跟相片中的那人几近无异,但她还是无缘由的有些陌生。
他微笑着走近,轻轻的将她揽在怀中,她的冰冷让他心疼,他牵着她冰冷浸骨的手,带她走遍了昔日曾经走过的所有街头巷陌,他说是候风等着青鸟,他说,三年零六个月,一直的等,一直等着。
虽然错过了一时,错过了一生。
泪水模糊了眼睛,她只好调头看向天空,天空蓝得透明,让她觉得非常刺眼。
酸涩的眼睛有些湿润的感觉,渐渐从心里涌起来。
什么时候呢?这种感觉,在什么时候也曾经有过。
她活着的时候,曾经也这样执着,傻傻的喜欢,傻傻的爱,然后再傻傻的等,傻傻的盼,终于直到把最好的年华一寸一寸的虚度,到不能不辗转回头,才发现一无所有,爱和被爱,都成了空茫茫的沼泽和沙漠,心底深处的疼,却不是悔,一直的疼,锥心剌骨。
她以为自己已经不会再爱了,爱这缥缈虚无的红尘。
在她渐渐迷失时空的那一段岁月,她忽然邂逅了他,两个同样冷清的人忽然于缥缈的虚无中邂逅。
他用他博古通今的睿智读懂了她幽幽的彷徨和深深孤独,她不过是一缕凄艾的游魂,只能在暗夜和虚无中飘移,他怜悯她再也无缘这红尘世上每一段的春华秋实。
于是,从那一天起,他到哪里都给她拍一大堆的照片,时常送给她一堆的相册,他远远的隔着苍茫的时空,微笑的等待着,等待着她纤细地手指一页一页的翻过。
春天的花,的叶,秋天的金黄,冬季的茫茫无涯的一片片雪花……人世间的四季风光盛景一页一页地从她的指尖下面掠过去了,寂静的沙沙声响,象红尘最凄迷的一首老歌。
这样一次叛逆的出走,他和她都知道,等待她的终将是灰飞烟没,他们甚至不再有轮回,不再有来世,也许,相遇过终将无悔,只是最后的一刻,他泪流满面,她也想任性的为他沸腾一壶青绿,只为这穿越时空的邂逅,可惜,时光流逝,就这样把红尘的缘份结束与开始在虚无缥缈的阡陌中间。
人世间弥足珍贵的向往,往往说有就有,说无终无……
在最深刻的一段岁月,时空像杯子里的水,纯净,平和,一切都是那么的迷离。
隔着一条永不能抵达的河流,他看着她,她看着他,青鸟和风,彼此遥遥,天边,咫尺,即是恒久。
Introduce:In Guangzhou's deep and serene lane child in stroll, she gets lost very easily still.
Although she feels to azimuth all along very sensitive, still be inner ear is in unfamiliar and in familiar city.
Guangzhou, you ever can know, she ever was familiar in that way, she hanged a smile for this corners of the mouth.
She stands over quietly, chilly chilly ground is smiling to say, guangzhou, I came again, I am very good, true, everything is well.
This is her all one's life comes to Guangzhou the 2nd times, all the way, flow in blood those who drip is those are familiar with and be full of countless dark emerging sincere feeling.
Side side is the banging noise of train engine, the roll with the heavy wheel that is Ca of card blocking Ca is in the banging noise on rail, it is the wind howling that air is driving a distance to go ceaselessly backward, it is Cong Xiangjiang fall south leave again grow long hooter sound … these along motherland domain bend, along the elongate of rail, approach step by step along the course that leads to her world.
Say to the real situation is not had on the net, what is more,the rather that, in the human society of that generation, she has tried of a lot of bleak with distress.
But still cannot check fell in love with.
If, total meeting loves the person's lifetime truly last time, she thinks, buddha, grant me please this only last time.
So, she came, this city of sadness that comes to him.
This city in fact she is not unfamiliar, no matter be 2 sanded islands, still be sea bead bridge, no matter be east hill, more beautiful still, no matter be the Milky way, still be Huang Bu, almost of the city each inches of land, she once had gone, her whole youth, of whole happiness, the years that if the flower is general and bright,passes, uncensored saves full a unit of weight in here, so, all the way, you Xiangjiang, to Na Yue, she is light car route is ripe.
But she still confused a road, after 3 years the numerous blossomy this May spends city spring.
Urban change is too much, high-rise change quickly, city still scene of debauchery, but however yesterday is to be not today.
Scan widely looks, she became the passerby that the shoulder is brushed hurriedly in the city and dies again, she hard search, unfamiliar and hardships.
The telephone number on at hand bit by bit moistly, handwriting is gradually ambiguous.
But she remembers clearly, this each other imprint on the mind to agree deep-rootedly.
Only is Hunan daughter amorous, he is obstinate all the time say, are you believed, in that round of preexistence a lot of years a lot of ago, we had had an agreement certainly, they are acquainted for the first time, he says, the Bai Yu outside wall follows old line, the Qing Diao that cultivate a head awaits wind to break up.
He says you are Qing Diao, I am Hou Feng, it is you wait for me, be still I wait for you? She can'ts help smiling, that is be acquainted on their net full after 3 years.
His N second request, see one side, she eventually of sadness assent, 10 show cadaverous knock falls, they agreed eventually time, they decide to be in those5839