是谁把我变成了僵尸

从小就有算命的瞎子摸着我的手说，说我今生不会活过三十岁。
当时我还

小，不知道生与死的界线到底在哪里，也没有感到害怕。
妈妈听到了这句话，差不多要把她所有的唾液都啐到那瞎子脸上，说你真是胡说八道，我儿子命长着哩！接着妈妈就拉着我走出了那瞎子的屋，没有给他一分钱。

走在街上，我看到妈妈在抹眼泪。
我问：妈妈，你怎么了，为什么哭？

妈妈眼睛红红的，说没什么，妈妈眼里进了砂子。

当时我不知道妈妈为什么哭，但是长大了以后，我知道了，妈妈其实相信了那瞎子的话。

二十岁的时候，我有一次在里打篮球晕倒，被同学们送进了。
医生对妈妈说，你儿子患有很严重的先天性心脏病，可能不会活到二十五岁，你要做好心理准备。
妈妈听了这句话脸就变得煞白，歇思底里地扯着医生的衣白大褂，说大夫您一定要救救我儿子，花多少钱我都愿意。

医生平静地看着她，说你别激动，要想挽救你儿子的性命，首先要有合适的人愿意捐出心脏，进行换心手术，手术的费用大概有五六十万元，即便是手术成功了，病人也要长期口服抗排异反应的药物，而且，国内经过换心手术存活最久的是二十年。

你回到去和孩子的父亲商量一下，做出个决定，这种手术越早做越安全。

妈妈听到医生的一席话，沸腾的热血就凉了。
她颓然地走在凳子上，喃喃自语道：他父亲早就没了，我去和谁商量？五十万，我一个月的工资只有六百元，要赚到何年何月才能攒够我儿子的手术费？

医生扶了扶眼镜，做出了一个爱莫能助的神情。

妈妈失魂落魄地离开了医生办公室，来到了我的床前。
我说妈，我到底得了什么病？为什么我现在一点力气也没有？

妈妈灰色的脸上强挤出了笑容，说你累了，所以才会没有力气，休息一下就好了。

妈妈没能让我做成换心手术，对于巨额的手术费，她实在无能为力。

她只是精力地照料我，不让我剧烈运动，不让我的心情有太大的起伏，连考试考得不好妈妈也舍不得骂我一句，在吃咸鸭蛋的时候妈妈总是默默地把蛋黄扒在我的碗里，还说自己胆囊炎，吃不了鸡鸭蛋。

我那可亲可敬可爱的妈妈，你是这个世界上对我最好的那个人，可是你咋这么命苦呢？

现在，世界上这个对我最好的已经去了。
我一个人无依无靠地存活地天地间，如恨海孤鸿，无父无母无兄无弟无姐无妹无子无女，就像是从石头里蹦出来的孙悟空，茫然地望着这个世界。

孙悟空盗吃金丹，偷吃蟠桃，压在五行山五百年下吃铜丸铁汁也不得死，而我呢？活到了三十五了，由于怕造成下一代的孤儿寡母，我放弃了结婚和生养的权力，老婆没有一个，儿女没有一人，膝下空虚。

但是就是这样，我已经感谢上苍了。
离医生给我判的死刑已然过了十年，我已侥幸地多活了十年，那么，我还有什么心不满意不足的呢？

我很满足了，虽然我很快就要死了，可是我依然对这个世界毫无恨意，不管怎样，这个世界是美好的，这个国家的人民是淳朴善良的。

我死了。
心脏病像是放置在我体内的定时炸弹，它虽然神使鬼差地在指定的时间里没有爆炸，可是在我三十五岁的那年，它还是后知后觉地无情地夺去了我的生命。

如今，我死了。
躺在冷得要命的冰柜里，黑黑地看不到一切，是我的魂灵溜出了体外，告诉我发生的一切事情。
我又怎样变成僵尸的呢？我把这个秘密告诉你，我保证这个故事的每一句话都是真的，我保证每一件事都是我亲身经历的，我发誓。

Introduce:The hand that feeling me with respect to a blind person that has fortune-telling as a child says, say my this life won't have lived 30 years old.
I am small still at that time, do not know to be born where to be after all with dead borderline, also did not feel fear.
Mom heard this word, want almost her all saliva spit arrives on face of that a blind person, say you are nonsense really, my son life is growing! Then mom was pulling me to walk out of the house of that a blind person, did not give him one minute money.
Go on the street, I see mom is wiping tear.
I ask: Mom, you how, why to cry? Of mom eye Gong Gong, say it's nothing, sand was taken in mom eye.
I do not know why mom cries at that time, but after was brought up, I knew, mom believed the word of that a blind person actually.
20 years old when, I play basketball in the school once faint, be sent into the hospital by classmates.
The doctor says to mom, your son contracts very severe congenital heart disease, the likelihood won't live to be 25 years old, you should do good psychology to prepare.
Mom listened to this word face to become pale, rest the garment white unlined long gown that thinks of the ground in the bottom to having a doctor, say you must save the doctor help my son, spend how many money I am willing.
The doctor looks at her calmingly, say you are fastened excited, want to save the life of your son, want to right person is willing to contribute a heart above all, undertake changing heart surgery, the charge of the operation has 5589 yuan probably, even if is operation success, the patient also wants long-term profess to convinced to fight the medicaments of the reaction that discharge different, and, home passes surviving farthest of the operation that change a heart is 20 years.
You are returned go discussing with the child's father in the home, make a decision, this kind of operation is done earlier safer.
Mom hears the doctor's what one says during a conversation, boiling warm blood is cool.
Her dejected ground goes on bench, mutter path: His father was done not have early, do I go with who discussing? 500 thousand, the salary of my month has 600 yuan only, want gain why year why is lunar talent save money enough the operation expenses of my son? The doctor helps glasses up, made a look that be willing to help but unable to do so.
Ground of mom lose one's mind left doctor office, come to the front of my bed.
I say Mom, what disease did I get after all? Why I is a bit effort also done not have now? On the face of mom gray squeeze by force gave smile, say you are tired, so ability can do not have effort, it is good to take a rest.
Mom fails to let my make it change heart surgery, to the operation expenses of a huge sum, she is really helpless.
She is energy ground attends only I, do not make me acuteness move, the mood that does not let me has too big rise and fall, bad mom also hates to part with even exam take an examination ofing scold me, when eating salty duck's egg mom always gathers up yoke silently in my bowl, still say him cholecystitis, cannot eat gallinaceous duck9265