鬼泪

一阵风爱上我，那天晚上，一个梦捎这个消息给我，此后，身边多了一阵风，他很乖，也很听话，我意把手伸入他的体内，我发现，原来气旋的中心最平静，最安全。
他总是跟着我，喜欢调皮的卷动我的头发，但只有我知道，这风却永不能吹入我的心，因为我爱上了一座坟。
八岁那年，回奶奶家，乡下的坟场，我和父母一起去拜祭奶奶，回来的时候，只有我一个人迷了路。
我走了一圈，回到原来的地方，听大人说好像叫，不知谁和我开这样的玩笑，我只好坐下来和奶奶聊天。
是奶奶故意挽留我，这可爱的老太太一点也不怜惜她幼小的孙女。
找来一阵怪风卷动，打着旋儿的那种，奶奶告诉他照顾我，我说奶奶你放心，我们可以做朋友。
后来又来了一个“人”，我们四个在一起聊天，第四个就是他，我像风爱上我一样迅速的爱上他，他黑青的眼眶，忧郁的微笑，当时我年少不知什么叫做沧桑，我知道他的眼神中有我不曾见到过的寂寞，他叫坟，是奶奶的邻居，十年前，他比奶奶先来到这里，谈话中我知道他在等一个人，一个女人，曾经属于他的女人，他们从小一同长大，曾交换了一生的誓言，女人为他编制的一双手套温暖了他们一生的爱恋。
他说我长得很像女人儿时的模样，我又看到了那双眼睛，闪光的激动，冷漠的忧伤。
我知道鬼没有血色不会脸红，但他大概没注意我单纯的眼睛里藏了什么。
我想拉他的手安慰他，却只牵到一缕风，旋儿从指尖穿过，好像是在提醒我，不可能的不要碰，而我却偏偏这样的爱上了一个死灵。
我曾问他女人为什么会死，他说这是孟婆的一个秘密，他说我小孩子不懂，然后静静的看着我，告诉我他为她保留了一滴泪，他说鬼的眼泪代表爱和重生。
央求下奶奶告诉我故事的始末。
她说魔鬼爱上了女人找了孟婆，孟婆给了他一碗汤叫他给女人，女人喝了汤丢了记忆丢了灵魂，残缺的肉壳嫁给魔鬼的当晚，作为嫁妆，杀死了自己的恋人。
被所爱的人杀死是幸福的，而男人爱的是女人的灵魂而不是躯壳，怨气凝结了多年的守候，化作一滴泪等待女人灵魂的到来，换她重生，而自己的愿望了结后，便会毫无牵挂的灰飞烟灭。
我不要他走，我不能让他离开，所以我不愿那女人的到来，但我却无法正视他眼中的空洞，因为我无法给他幸福。
他的幸福，他的归宿，我的愿望，我的代价。
当我看见他将一颗闪着光芒的晶莹泪珠托起交给一个迟来的灵魂，他找到了幸福，而我的爱也将随他永去。
不！我唤来旋儿，叫他化作飓风，一向听话的他在我身边急速的旋转，我知道他明白我的心，我知道他不愿看到我一世伤心，我知道我离开是他永远的痛，我只能说：爱我，就成全我的爱。
他疯狂的速度却只把我放在中心，让我安全，虽然他知道这无济于事。
我无视他的伤心，把手伸入了风壁，巨大的惯力拉着我沦陷的心一同旋转，从前的温柔抚摸化作身体被撕裂的剧痛，只有爱坟的我和爱我的风才能使这泪具有重生的作用。
血，作为人我看见的最后一抹颜色；泪，作为鬼我许下的第一个愿望。
我将它给了坟，十年前，男人随女人的死去而死去，十年后，男人岁女人的复活而复活，临别前我只从风的缝隙中匆匆看他一眼，或许，我只是爱上了他的寂寞。
下雨的时候，我问风，你的眼泪代表什么，他说，是为了爱人永远的守候。
我信了，我第一次听他的话。
我再一次将手探入那温柔的，安全的风心，我终于明白，他的心并不是空的。
而我，已经不能再爱谁了，我已经没什么可以给他了。
后来，我去找孟婆，向她要了一碗汤，孟婆告诉我，喝下它，就能消除今生的牵挂。
我告诉自己，喝下它，就能换来来世的幸福，我没有犹豫。
后来的后来，注定的结局。
灰飞烟灭的时候，我无所留恋的心随风散去，冥冥中，只听见风在伤心。

Introduce:Blast falls in love with me, that day in the evening, this message gives take along sth to sb of a dream me, after this, beside much blast, he is very good, very obedient also, inside the system that my meaning handle extends him, I discover, the center of original cyclone is the quietest, the safest.
He always follows me, like piquant scroll my hair, but only I know, this wind however never can inbreathe my heart, because I fell in love with a grave.
, return grandma home, graveyard field of countryside, I and parents do obeisance to grandma of hold a memorial ceremony for together, when coming back, only my person confused a road.
I walked along circuit, return original place, listen to adult come to an agreement or understanding to resemble calling ghost to hit a wall, do not know who and me to open such fun, I am forced to sit to chat with the grandma.
It is the grandma persuades me to stay intentionally, this lovely old lady not at all take pity on her little granddaughter.
Look for scroll of a strange wind, hitting come back the sort of, the grandma tells him to take care of me, I say a grandma you are at ease, we can become a friend.
Came to again later " person " , we chat 4 times together, the 4th is him, I am fallen in love with like wind he is fallen in love with quickly like me, the orbit of his Hei Qing, blue smile, I am junior at that time what to know to be called vicissitudes of life, I know to there is the loneliness that I never had seen in his eyes, he calls grave, it is the neighbour of the grandma, 10 years ago, he comes to here first than the grandma, I know he is waiting for a person in the talk, a woman, once belonged to his woman, they are brought up together as a child, ever exchanged the oath of lifetime, a pair of gloves that the woman weaves for him are warm of their lifetime be in love with.
He says I grow very to resemble a woman the about when, I saw that pair of eyes again, flashy excited, chill sadness.
I know ghost won't blush without redness of skin, but what to hide in the eye that he did not notice I am pure probably.
I think the hand that plays him comforts him, pull a wind only however, come back cross from finger tip, seeming is to reminding me, impossible do not touch, and I however unluckily such fell in love with a wraith.
I ever asked him why the woman is met dead, he says this is a secret of mother-in-law of the first month, he says my children does not understand, look at me silently next, tell me he withheld a tear for her, he says the tear of ghost represents love and renascence.
The grandma below beg tells me the whole story of the story.
She says the devil fell in love with a woman to seek old woman of the first month, mother-in-law of the first month gave a bowl of his soup to call him to give a woman, the woman drank soup to lost memory to lose the spirit, misshapen fleshy case is married of the devil that evening, as dotal, killed oneself lover.
Be killed to be happy by loves person, and the soul that what the man loves is a woman is not the body, complaint condensed old expect, change a tear to await the arrival of feminine spirit, 8625