外公的魂魄

大二的时候外公因病去世，虽然预感会有这种结果，也做好了心理准备，但刚接到消息鼻子里还是酸得不得了。
外公的病是恶性肿瘤，暑假期间在我家养病养了几个月，为此，我妈还专程辞掉工作照顾他。

收拾心情急急忙忙请了假，赶到家时已是晚上，一个人也没有，都到外公家帮忙处理后事了，如此安静的环境又让我鼻子发酸，忍不住掉下泪来。
打算睡一觉明早再动身，可躺在床上却迟迟睡不着，脑子里在重复的确认外公是否真的走了，折腾了一会总算脑子平静下来，慢慢睡着。
突然迷迷糊糊中总感觉身体很重，手脚活动都相当困难，睁开眼睛，眼前是白色的头发，头发？是外公？我想大叫，但嘴里发不出一点声音，是外公趴在我的被子上？不能动弹的我无法确认，心跳的越来越快，呼吸都感觉有点困难。
我说服自己这是在做梦，因为想念外公而做了关于外公的梦，闭上眼睛，让心情归于平静，不知过了多久，我又睡去，直到天亮。

现在想想，那介于现实与梦境的到底是什么？是鬼压床么？可能吧。

最后希望外公能一路走好！

Introduce:Big 2 when grandfather dies due to illness, although premonition,can have this kind of result, also had made psychological preparation, dan Gang receives an information still is extremely acerbity in nose.
The disease of grandfather is malignant tumor, in me home recuperate raised a few months during summer vacation, for this, my Mom is returned on a special trip demit drops the job to take care of him.
Cleared away the mood to ask for leave hastily, in the evening already is when hurrying to the home, a person in the home also is done not have, the pubic outside arriving helps handle a funeral affair, so quiet environment lets my nose ache slightly again, cannot help dropping the tear comes.
The plan sleeps shut-eye leaves again tomorrow morning, can lie on the bed to sleep to be not worn tardy however, affirm in reduplicative whether grandfather goes really in brain, do sth over and over again a little while at long last brain calm, be asleep slowly.
Abrupt and confused in total feeling body is very heavy, activity of hands or feet is quite difficult, open an eye, it is white hair at the moment, hair? Be grandfather? I want to cry, but the hair in the mouth does not give a bit voice, be grandfather bends over to go up in my quilt? Cannot move me what play to cannot affirm, what the heart beats is faster and faster, breath feels a bit difficult.
I persuade myself this is to daydreaming, because of miss grandfather and made the dream about grandfather, close an eye, let the mood be attributed to calm, had not known how long, I go off, till day break.
Think now, that interpose what is at reality and dream after all? Be ghost press? Likelihood.
Last hope grandfather can have gone all the way! 16331