儿子的手指

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佟老二原本叫佟志豪，挺刚气的一个名字，可惜这个名字却几乎没什么人知道了，大家都当面叫他佟老二，背后叫他窝囊废。

佟老二的确窝囊。
自从他领着儿子入赘到庥寡妇家，他的脊梁骨就变软了，软到不足以为自己和儿子撑起一片天来。

每天他就像一只狗一样被庥寡妇呼来喝去，更苦了他才八岁的儿子小虎。

上学是不可能的，小虎的任务就是每天上山去放麻寡妇的那几十只羊。

在山深草密的地方，羊儿总能吃得饱饱的，而虎子仍然饿着肚子。

如果只是放羊，只是吃不饱，虎子都会认为自己很幸福，但是回家之后还有又多又重的活计等着他。
做得好了，他会受到后娘的白眼，做得不好，就是一顿暴打。

每次虎子挨打的时候，佟老二就背匕粪筐，垂着头默默地走出家门。
不知道他的眼睛有没有看见儿子求救的目光，耳朵有没有听见儿子撕心裂怖的哭喊。

他不敢看不敢听，唯一听见的就是麻寡妇一次次指着他的脊梁骨恶狠狠地咒骂：“你们这两个挨千刀的饿死鬼，整天就知道吃老娘的肉喝老娘的血，等哪天老娘气极了，把你这小饿死鬼剁了熬汤喝！”

佟老二想，不管怎么样，自己爷俩在麻寡妇这受点气，好歹也有个活路，要是离了她，自己拿什么养活儿子，拿什么买那天的二两烧酒。

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终于有一灭，虎子失踪了。

清早虎子像往常一样赶着羊群上了山，到了晚匕，羊群自己回来了，虎子却没回来。

麻寡妇发着横在院子里破口大骂：“要是丢了老娘的羊，死了也把你剁了熬汤……”

夜已经黑透了，麻寡妇骂累了，躺在炕上把呼噜打得山响。
睡不着的佟老二悄悄爬了起来，他还没忘自己是个爹，他还知道该去找找自己可怜的孩子。

佟老二找了一夜，越找心越凉。
虎子真的不见了！佟老二的心揪紧了，他已窝囊到麻木的感知慢慢苏醒过来。
他开始后悔，如果不是他窝窝囊囊的没有给儿子一点保护，儿子就不会每天挨打受累，不会总吃不饱饿得像一只瘦狗……也才突然想起来，虎子已经有多久没喊过自己一声爸了。

是啊！自己哪还配做一个爸爸，是自己让儿子小小的心失望乃至绝望了啊！

那一夜，在凄冷的夜里，佟老二的嚎哭惊醒了沉睡的旷野。

天亮了，佟老二失魂落魄地回家了。
当他刚刚恢复一点的骨气被一场人哭泄去之后，麻寡妇凶蛮的脸又让他的脊梁快速地软了下去。
他怕她，怕到骨子里。

很难得，麻寡妇居然没有刁难他对虎字一夜的寻找，反而早起熬了肉汤等着他回来。

佟老二哪里有心思吃饭，但肉汤已经熬了，他不敢不坐在桌子前面。

麻寡妇居然还亲自盛了一勺汤放进佟老二的碗里。
浓浓的汤汁散发出诱人的香气，佟老二拿起筷子搅了搅汤碗，一小块白白的肉浮了上来。
佟老二看得分明，那是一根手指，小孩的手指！

佟老二一下子僵住了，他的身子开始颤抖，他的眼睛开始允血，终于，他发疯一样叫了起来。

老娘把你剁了熬汤！老娘把你剁了熬汤！麻寡妇恶毒的咒骂像劈雷一样炸响在他的脑子里。

麻寡妇傻傻地看着他叫，傻傻地看着他站起来走进厨房，又傻傻地看着他拎着菜刀出来，都还没明白怎么回事，就做了刀下鬼。

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佟老二给小虎子起了一个小小的坟茔，埋下了他小小的手指。
然后把剁碎的庥寡妇熬成一锅浓浓的汤端到坟前。

“虎子，是爸对不起你，爸让你活着受罪，死了还让那婆娘熬成汤，是爸对不起你啊！你活着的时候没吃过一顿饱饭，今天爸也把那坏婆娘熬了汤给你吃，你吃吧，吃得饱饱的。
吃了，你就再也不会饿了……”

佟老二痴痴傻傻地诉说着。
忽然，一个小小的声音说：“爸，我们一起吃。
”

佟老二哆嗦了一下子，就见坟后转出一个小小的人来，正是失踪了的虎了！

佟老二眼窝一热，哪里还去想是人是鬼，一把抱住儿子放声大哭：“虎了！你回来看爸了啊？”

“爸，丢了一只羊，我躲在山里不敢回家，二妈会打死我的。
我几天没吃饭了，爸，我饿。
”

虎了的眼睛看着那罐了里的肉汤，放出了让佟老二心寒的绿光。

佟老二猛然想起了什么，他一把抓住儿了的手：小虎了的手脏兮兮的，但手指一根也不少！

佟老二怿叫一声扑到新起的坟上，疯狂地用手扒土，直扒得双手鲜血泥泞。

他扒出来了，一个小小的布袋，里面装着的，就是那肉汤里捞出来的“儿子的手指”。

佟老二哆嗦着打开布袋，一截小小的藕掉了出来。

Introduce:1 Tong second calls Tong Zhihao originally, hold out a name of strong energy of life, regrettablly this name however hardly what person knew, everybody calls him Tong second face to face, call him good-for-nothing rear.
Tong second really feel vexed.
Since him getting son marry into and live with wife's family to reach Xiu widow home, his backbone with respect to molten, soft remove a day to come with be being maintained for oneself and son to inadequacy.
Everyday he is breathed out to be drunk by Xiu widow like a dog, bitterer he just son small tiger of 8 years old.
Going to school is impossible, the task of small tiger is those a few sheep that every sky hill goes to putting hemp widow.
Be in the place with hill deep close grass, sheep always can eat fully full, and tiger child hungry still abdomen.
If just put a sheep, it is be on short commons only, tiger child can think oneself are very happy, but there still is the handicraft work that weighs again more again to waiting for him after coming home.
Be done well, he can get the supercilious look of stepmother, do badly, it is cruel dozen.
Every time tiger child when taking a beating, tong second carries manure basket of an ancient type of spoon on the back, hanging down the head walks out of a door silently.
The eye that does not know him sees the look of son ask for help, ear hears the son rips what the heart cracks fear to cry cry.
He dare not look to dare not listen, what hear exclusively is the backbone that hemp widow is pointing to him curses ferociously: "You endure the hungry devil of 1000 knives twice this, know the flesh that has old woman drinks the blood of old woman all the day, old woman of day where waiting for is extremely angry, you chop of this small hungry devil boil soup to drink! " Tong second thinks, without giving thought to how, him father and son in hemp widow this gets bit of air, anyhow also has a workable method, if left her, what do oneself take to raise a son, what to take to buy the 19 arrack that day.
2 have one to destroy eventually, tiger child was missing.
Tiger of early in the morning child catching up with Yang Qun as usual hill, arrived late an ancient type of spoon, him Yang Qun came back, tiger child did not come back however.
Hemp widow is sending a horizontal stroke to be in the courtyard shout abuse: "If lost the sheep of old woman, died also your chop the …… that boil boiling water " night is already black appeared, hemp widow is scolded tired, lie on kang to make part of speech thunderously.
Restless Tong second climbed stealthily, he has not forgotten he is a dad, he still knows to should look for the child that looks for his to have pity on.
Tong second looked for one night, look for a heart more cooler.
Of Hu Zizhen disappeared! The heart hold tight of Tong second was tightened, he already feel vexed is felt to apathetic slowly come to one's senses.
He begins to regret, if not be of bursa of his nest feel vexed,did not protect to the son, the son won't take a beating everyday be put into trouble, won't total be on short commons is so hungry that won't total be on short commons …… of poor like dog just also thinks suddenly, tiger child how long had not called oneself pa.
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